The Moment of Truth: His Arrival (Chapter V)

We talked about different stuff like family, interest, etc. He was so polite. I've realized that I like talking with him. He had sense of humor and he knew how to handle a conversation well. I liked his voice too. I've never been inclined with someone before. In just a little while, I was comfortably talking with him and wished not to stop the call.

The following night was also amazing because he called me again. Surprisingly too, he often talks to me now even in chat. But deep within me, I still keep reminding myself not to hope too much. I might get hurt in the end if he'll stop talking to me.

But as the days passed, he still keeps on talking. He even sang a happy birthday song to me over the phone and I found it as sweet gesture. No one has ever done it to me before. Oh no, will it result to positive thing or it'll be another heartache? How can resist him when he's telling me he's thinking about me. Is he interested of knowing me better?

One day was an unbelievable day for me. He told me he's coming visit me here in the Philippines. I was lost of words. What will I tell him? My heart was beating like a drum. Is it really for real? Or he was just kidding me? But he said he had already plane reservation.

On the following days that I was expecting his arrival, I could hardly sleep because of tension and excitement. What if he won't like me? What if I'll disappoint him with my looks? There were plenty of what if's running around my head! The only thing that kept me strong was my belief that if he's not for me, he won't be able to make it on the third week of January 2011.

I asked God to give me a sign if He would give him to me and He did! He made it on the 3rd week of January. I received a text message from him telling me he's already on the plane going to Manila and would be taking another plane going to Kalibo airport - our meeting place. Even though I was so nervous, I told him him I would pick him at the airport.

Phone Call: Will It Turn Out Just Fine? (Chapter IV)

The next morning, I saw him on again. He started the conversation. Well, we were just talking about some stuff he used to do in Guam. All of the sudden, he asked for my cell phone number which I thought not proper to give especially for a person you just met online. He said it is much easier to talk over the phone than chatting. I have heard a lot of stories where people being fooled by scammers. I didn't think he was one of those but for safe reason, I didn't want to just give my number that easily.

I was about to refuse on giving my number when I saw my boss behind me. If I'll refuse and explained my reason he'll spot I was chatting to someone. As fast as I could, I typed my number and sent it to him. The purpose for it was to avoid any explanation why I am refusing to give my digits when in fact we've been talking for quite a while now.

If he was one of those people who were fooling people online, I could easily change my number. He said he couldn't wait to talk to me that night. Well, I was really thrilled about it. I could feel that my heartbeat was beating like a drum while waiting for that moment.

When I got home, I kept on looking at my phone. I felt this great anticipation because I wanted to hear his voice. Will he be polite? At exactly 7:00 o'clock pm, my phone rings. Oh my, my hands were trembling while I push the answer button. With a small voice, I uttered "Hello". I was really tensed. It's my first time to talk to someone from the other country - a person that was a stranger to me.

New Hope? (Chapter III)

It was already on my mindset to ignore him even if I often see him online. There were times I was tempted to send a chat message but held myself not to.

After over a week, I was really surprised because he first chatted with me. He said he was sorry because he was so busy for the few days and failed to talk to me. Well, I didn't know if I should believe him or not. The only thing that first popped out from my mind was gladness to know that he didn't actually forget all about me.

We chatted for awhile, talking some stuff, about his work in Guam and other things he is fond of doing like surfing, kite boarding, riding motorcycle and the like. Those fun stuff he mentioned was way out of my league. I didn't know to appreciate them because at the first place, I am afraid of speed and extreme sports.

I just listened because I was enjoying our conversation. Is this the start of a new friendship or it'll just vanish after this talk? I just don't know yet.

Disappointment (Chapter II)

I've sent the message without expecting any response from him because a lot of guys who were not interested will just neglect your message. But to my surprise, I didn't wait for an hour but only for a few minutes for his response. I was surprised though. He told me that he learned Tagalog through his Filipino friends and workers. Well, I was thinking who is he in the society. Is he the kind of guy who belongs to elite people? I wasn't really bothered of who he is. I was just kind of confuse about the info he did write about himself. It's a bit confusing and will bring a dull impression to a reader who will come across to his profile.

I replied with a short message which he replied quickly too. He asked me if I had an IM. I was thinking maybe I will just talk to him once and I will not hear from him after that, which is always the case when someone asked for my IM. I did give him my yahoo ID. He added me and we started talking about casual things. He's different from the other guys. He's not talking about topics about feelings and stuff.

But then, after a short conversation, he told me that he was kinda distracted because he has to prepare a Christmas Party for his workers. That really made me think he was one of the executives in the company. I felt belittle about myself. I am no one and he is someone. I wanted to step back. This guy is not for me. He belongs to someone who also belongs to people who are in high society. I also thought that he was a ladies man.

He promised to talk to me after he's done with his responsibilities at the moment. But after that conversation, I never heard from him again. It's almost a week now that I saw him online but didn't bother to send me a single chat. I tried to say hi but I received no reply. With dropped shoulders, I was determined to ignore him. I can't explain the disappointment I felt inside me...

Meeting You Online (Chapter I)

Dreams Come Alive

December 16, 2010. How could I ever forget this date? I woke up early in the morning as my regular routine. Nothing seemed to be special this day. It'll be another boring day of work. Oh no. I didn't mean I hate going to work. It's just that, I suddenly felt worn out of doing the same thing everyday for the last seven months.

I work as an SEO writer for my boss who develops business websites. I love writing. I really do. But something came on me for the past few days. I am not enjoying it anymore. I need a new environment. But not now. I need to earn money and it's all that matters. I prepared my breakfast, fixed myself and comfortably walk to my workplace. Little did I know that this day will make my life upside down.

As of my regular routine. I checked my written articles first before reading my new topics for the day. Hours passed and I got so bored and sleepy sitting on my chair, reading countless articles online to give me fresh ideas. I wanted to take a nap but I couldn't just leave my work, so I decided to relax myself by taking a break for a while.

I logged on to a dating site which I signed up for more than a month. Actually, I was not really looking for men to date. I only signed up because of the quizzes that this site offered. They're fun, I could say. I had gained a true friend in here. There were few guys who were interested but I kept myself at bay. I was at first skeptic about meeting people online. You'll never know that the person you're talking to is a psychopathic or normal.

There were plenty of men flashing on the screen that you could choose from. Their profiles were impressive. You could say that these guys were perfect for women... captivating pictures; interesting personal information and a lot more. I was too, driven by them but it's hard to easily trust people.

There was a certain profile who just flashed with a very few matches with my personality. He only rated 74% and I was kind of disappointed because he was the first person that day who rated very low to mine. The other guys rated as high 97%. But I was still intrigued though so I opened his profile. Wow! That's my intial reaction when I looked at his picture. He has very attractive eyelashes! Well, I wasn't interested with his personal information. It appeared to me that he was one of those guys who weren't interesting to know about. I was about to leave his profile when I spotted something. He knew how to speak Tagalog and it's surprising for me. Foreign men doesn't know my language unless they have lived here in my country. For a fleeting moment, I was thinking if I would say hi or just leave and decided to do the first. This was really my exact message. "You know how to speak Tagalog? It's amazing!"

Week With Him

It had been a memorable week for me - to be with him.