New Hope? (Chapter III)

It was already on my mindset to ignore him even if I often see him online. There were times I was tempted to send a chat message but held myself not to.

After over a week, I was really surprised because he first chatted with me. He said he was sorry because he was so busy for the few days and failed to talk to me. Well, I didn't know if I should believe him or not. The only thing that first popped out from my mind was gladness to know that he didn't actually forget all about me.

We chatted for awhile, talking some stuff, about his work in Guam and other things he is fond of doing like surfing, kite boarding, riding motorcycle and the like. Those fun stuff he mentioned was way out of my league. I didn't know to appreciate them because at the first place, I am afraid of speed and extreme sports.

I just listened because I was enjoying our conversation. Is this the start of a new friendship or it'll just vanish after this talk? I just don't know yet.

Disappointment (Chapter II)

I've sent the message without expecting any response from him because a lot of guys who were not interested will just neglect your message. But to my surprise, I didn't wait for an hour but only for a few minutes for his response. I was surprised though. He told me that he learned Tagalog through his Filipino friends and workers. Well, I was thinking who is he in the society. Is he the kind of guy who belongs to elite people? I wasn't really bothered of who he is. I was just kind of confuse about the info he did write about himself. It's a bit confusing and will bring a dull impression to a reader who will come across to his profile.

I replied with a short message which he replied quickly too. He asked me if I had an IM. I was thinking maybe I will just talk to him once and I will not hear from him after that, which is always the case when someone asked for my IM. I did give him my yahoo ID. He added me and we started talking about casual things. He's different from the other guys. He's not talking about topics about feelings and stuff.

But then, after a short conversation, he told me that he was kinda distracted because he has to prepare a Christmas Party for his workers. That really made me think he was one of the executives in the company. I felt belittle about myself. I am no one and he is someone. I wanted to step back. This guy is not for me. He belongs to someone who also belongs to people who are in high society. I also thought that he was a ladies man.

He promised to talk to me after he's done with his responsibilities at the moment. But after that conversation, I never heard from him again. It's almost a week now that I saw him online but didn't bother to send me a single chat. I tried to say hi but I received no reply. With dropped shoulders, I was determined to ignore him. I can't explain the disappointment I felt inside me...

Meeting You Online (Chapter I)

Dreams Come Alive

December 16, 2010. How could I ever forget this date? I woke up early in the morning as my regular routine. Nothing seemed to be special this day. It'll be another boring day of work. Oh no. I didn't mean I hate going to work. It's just that, I suddenly felt worn out of doing the same thing everyday for the last seven months.

I work as an SEO writer for my boss who develops business websites. I love writing. I really do. But something came on me for the past few days. I am not enjoying it anymore. I need a new environment. But not now. I need to earn money and it's all that matters. I prepared my breakfast, fixed myself and comfortably walk to my workplace. Little did I know that this day will make my life upside down.

As of my regular routine. I checked my written articles first before reading my new topics for the day. Hours passed and I got so bored and sleepy sitting on my chair, reading countless articles online to give me fresh ideas. I wanted to take a nap but I couldn't just leave my work, so I decided to relax myself by taking a break for a while.

I logged on to a dating site which I signed up for more than a month. Actually, I was not really looking for men to date. I only signed up because of the quizzes that this site offered. They're fun, I could say. I had gained a true friend in here. There were few guys who were interested but I kept myself at bay. I was at first skeptic about meeting people online. You'll never know that the person you're talking to is a psychopathic or normal.

There were plenty of men flashing on the screen that you could choose from. Their profiles were impressive. You could say that these guys were perfect for women... captivating pictures; interesting personal information and a lot more. I was too, driven by them but it's hard to easily trust people.

There was a certain profile who just flashed with a very few matches with my personality. He only rated 74% and I was kind of disappointed because he was the first person that day who rated very low to mine. The other guys rated as high 97%. But I was still intrigued though so I opened his profile. Wow! That's my intial reaction when I looked at his picture. He has very attractive eyelashes! Well, I wasn't interested with his personal information. It appeared to me that he was one of those guys who weren't interesting to know about. I was about to leave his profile when I spotted something. He knew how to speak Tagalog and it's surprising for me. Foreign men doesn't know my language unless they have lived here in my country. For a fleeting moment, I was thinking if I would say hi or just leave and decided to do the first. This was really my exact message. "You know how to speak Tagalog? It's amazing!"